I remember being a little girl, and one Christmas in particular because we got an Atari. They had just come on the scene back then, and I couldn’t wait to play. My parents had hooked up the system before we woke up that morning so it was all ready to go. One of the games we had was Breakout. You used the paddle and turned the wheel to hit the ball, and break the multicolored bricks of a wall. The object of the game was to break through, and destroy all of the bricks.
This morning I read a post on HolleyGerth.com about being God’s chosen. I am so thankful for them because I need words like the ones she shared so very much. As I read the words they registered in my head, but as always they did not register with my heart. (click the link to read the post if you didn’t already)
All my life I have felt as though there are bulletproof walls of hardening around my heart to prevent any hurt from getting through. But instead of preventing pain from getting in, they shut out all of the love I need.
My husband is a wonderful man. For ten years he has lived with me, and the bulletproof walls. However, he chose all those years ago, to stick around and chip away at it them a little at a time. Trying to conquer the walls and reach my heart with his love. Sometimes I wonder why I am so blessed to have him wait, and love me like he does. I mean he knows only God can tear down the walls, but still he waits and loves me all the while.
My prayer this morning was, “God, could you please finally just tear down whatever this wall is that is keeping me from receiving your love?” He and I have been chipping at walls with His word for quite some time. I had no idea I had so many until we got started. Wall after wall, we have been working on the ever-changing labyrinth built around my heart.
Strongholds built with bricks of:
abuse-sexual, physical, mental, and emotional
fear and anxiety
They are all strongholds that the enemy has built in my life. All the while, he was lying to me and telling me that I was keeping myself safe from all the hurt and pain of the world. In actuality, I was allowing him to keep me isolated and unloved.
Satan lied by telling me I needed the added protection of them. When all I really needed was boundaries in which to live that would allow me to know when I was being mistreated. Like an alarm system. (So when the walls come down don’t forget to put these in place.) This allows me to open the door to the good and lock out the bad.
God is a gentleman. He will not come into places uninvited. I learned that when I started chipping at the bricks of the walls around my heart. Today I chose to listen to Holley’s words, and find scriptures whispered from God about my walls that are still rejecting His love. Then I prayed and invited Him in.
I wrote this to share some of the scripture with you. Scripture, prayer, and praise, are the only thing that will destroy what the enemy has built. You must have a relationship with Jesus Christ to tear the walls down because the enemy is stronger than you alone. I pray you do. If not, leave a comment below about wanting one and I will keep it anonymous. I will contact you and tell you how you too can have a relationship with Jesus so you can know His great love. I pray the walls in your life come tumbling down like the walls of Jericho did for Joshua, Beloved! You deserve to know His love for you too. ❤ Mindy
9 You whom I have taken from the ends of the earth, And called from its farthest regions, And said to you, ‘You are My servant, I have chosen you and have not cast you away: 10 Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’